US vs. them: a look to the Future

Border Repair
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

This past Saturday, I went to Playas de Tijuana and found the dUS-Mexico border fence at the beach totally dismembered (see picture at right taken by my sister, Martina). Was I dreaming? Had the beginning of a borderless future arrived? Kids jumped back and forth across the ditch in the sand that marked the division between the two countries. Fishermen followed the school of fish across the border line, joking that the fish on the dUS side were bigger than on the Mexican side. ¡Increible!

Yet, as I looked beyond the hub of activity bleeding onto the dUS beach, the white SUV of la migra (the Border Patrol) remained, ever-watchful with its tinted windows. Large steel plates lay on the sand, ready to replace the rusted ones that had just been taken down. New, taller fence posts were already put into place. Visions of a future returned to the reality that this opening in the fence was temporary.

I say visions of a future because I believe that the future is still in the hands of the present. There are many possible futures, of which I saw of a preview of only one. The prevista at Playas helped me to better understand the context of this fence. Put up in the early 1990's, this is far from a permanent structure. It's a kid just reaching puberty. Still malleable. Still culpable. Even the wall in Berlin - physically much larger and with more obvious life-threatening guardians - came down on November 9th, 1989, after 28 years of existence. How? By the will (and the force) of das Volk. They came first with protest songs, then with sledge hammers, and finally with bulldozers.

So, why is it that only 100 people turn out to a protest in downtown San Diego against civilian vigilante border patrols (google: "Minuteman Project")? Why are there no sit-ins on the beach (not a bad setting for a protest)? Why do the 4+ million people in the San Diego area (and the rest of the dUS) go about their daily business while more proposals to re-enforce the border make their way through the local and national legislatures?

Easy. Unlike the ideological border between East and West Berlin (enforced from the top down), the economically-driven dUS-Mexico border policies come from the bottom (or middle) up. They are policies that stem from our fear of change. Fear that an influx of immigrants (i.e. aliens, people that speak other languages, people with difference perspectives) will make things "worse." Fear that maybe we might have to change our way of life (i.e. using potable water to wash cars, water lawns, and hose the dog). Fear that maybe the "American Way" really isn't the goal. It's US vs. them. And by them, I mean the rest of the world.

"Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to Anger. Anger leads to Hate. Hate leads to Suffering."
-Yoda, Star Wars

Currently reading: "Development as Freedom" by Amartya Sen and "La Cigarra y La Hormiga" (Mexican children's book)
Currently listening to: Jack Johnson, Manu Chao, Maná, Pancho Barraza, Sergio Vega and ABBA.

On Charity

Why is it that when it comes to working with the less fortunate, people seem to lower their standards? Here's an example:

At the end of each week here at Esperanza, the volunteer groups often leave some used clothing as donations to distribute to the communities with which we work. It's a wonderful gesture to re-use products in a way that might aid someone who needs a little extra help. Why then, do people donate used but unusable items like gloves so caked in cement that all the fingers are stiff or underwear with blood stains? It's Charity, not trash.

In working for an organization that's trying to build community and a dignified life for economically poor families in Tijuana, I've learned a lot about Charity. Unfortunately, the modern use of the word Charity as giving seems to distort it's original meaning as a love of fellow humanity. Charity, is really about respect, justice, and love. If I'm giving something to Charity, that should imply that I am participating in a mutual partnership. If someone is giving used, and unusable, underwear to another, it's not Charity. If one person is giving more than another, it's not Charity. Charity, giving, donating...all these things are two-way streets that many people see as two-lane, one-way freeways.

After decades of "charity," the coming of white, rental gringo vans to the barrios of Tijuana often brings blinds of dollar signs and gifts to the eyes of economically poor Mexicans struggling to live here. The metaphorical cat in the bag is that this form of charity doesn't solve any problems, and indeed causes more as the exportation of dUS band-aid policies penetrate ever deeper into the social fabric of the poor.

What I am asking for is a far-spread re-evaluation of Charity. If you are going to help someone less fortunate than yourself, you have a responsiblity to establish a relationship with them beyond the money or material things that you give. You have to teach them to fish instead of teaching them to beg for fish scraps. Doing the opposite doesn't help the cause, it only perpetuates the difference, materially, psychologically, socially, etc.. We want the receivers to become givers. So please...the next time you buy, buy used and the next time you give, give new.

"One love. One heart. Let's get together and feel alright."
-Bob Marley, One Love/People Get Ready

(hu)Man in the Mirror

Since February, I've worked with 20+ different groups totaling over 600 volunteers from all over the dis-United States: Pennsylvania, Washington, New York, Kansas, Missouri, Texas, New Jersey and, of course, California. I've met people from all social and economic levels. I've met people on the far left, on the far right, and in the middle of the political spectrum. I've worked with an 85-year old WWII vet and a 14-year old that was born when I was in Jr. High.

Of all these experiences, I've noticed a curious trend: the further away the volunteers come from, the more open they are to what they see, hear, and do here. It's a trend that crosses financial differences, social differences, and age differences. Why is it that the groups from the San Diego area (only ~45 min. away) only stay for a couple of days and the groups from across the country stay for a week? Why is it that the groups from San Diego listen to their individual iPods at the worksite and group from NY blast their music for everyone to hear? Why is it that the groups from San Diego say "I'm a volunteer, don't tell me what to do." and the group from San Anselmo, CA asks "Is there anything else you want me to do?" ? Why is it that the groups from San Diego leave their experience without even knowing the names of the families with which they worked, while the groups from Seattle, Kansas, NY, and Ohio maintain relationships with the families with whom they worked over 5 years ago?

One possibility: it's harder to try to change our own life than it is to try to change the life of someone else. The groups from San Diego live 15 miles away from the US-Mexico border. Changing their perspective of Tijuana as dirty, corrupt, and pleasure-driven means changing their perspective of San Diego as clean, straight, and righteous. Discovering the role of Mexicans as producers means discovering the their own role as consumers.

At the same time, I could just as easily ask groups from further away, "What do you do in your community?" or "How do you help your neighbor on a daily basis?" And their response would probably be similar to the volunteers from San Diego: "Not much." It just so happens that the neighbors of the San Diegans live in Tijuana and the neighbors of Seattlites live in Tacoma, White Center, Columbia City, etc. Why is it acceptable and even admirable for someone to join the Peace Corps and help build homes in the "Third World," while Tent City IV, a temporary housing community for homeless people in the greater Seattle area, sees considerable resistance by it's future neighbors. The Golden Rule comes to mind.

Perhaps I fit into this category too. After all, I'm thousands of miles from home, away from my family, away from my friends, doing "noble" deeds. Sure, I love the delicious, authentic Mexican tacos that I eat here every day, but have I ever even been to an authentic taco stand in Columbia City (<20 miles from my home in Seattle)? No.

At any rate, this is the level of change that we are working with here at Esperanza on a daily basis. The friendly conversation between neighbors, the inside jokes of co-humans, and the trust that results from the communal support of a first step; these are the "little" individual, man-in-the-mirror changes that are revolutionary. As Gandhi said, "be the change you wish to see in this world." Now, go out into the world and start changing yourself!

Paz, Amor, y Justicia,
Marcel ("El Chino") Tam

Gracias a la vida

Gracias a la vida que me ha dado tanto.
Thanks to the life that has given me so much.
- part of a song by Chilean poet, artist, and musician Violeta Parra

I can't seem to put together a cohesive blog. Everytime I write something, another important topic pops into mind. One thing I can say though, is that I appreciate the many things that life has brought me already in my 24 years on this earth.

Shout out to the Kenmore Krew: Craig, Alexei, G-Tron, Robo, Marty, James, Aaron, and all the rest. To "the rest": I'm usually included in "the rest" as well, or at least I like to thinks so. :)

Can you tell I'm in a nostaligic state of mind?

Also, really quick: Being surrounded by Spanish-speakers, I've grown accustomed to trying to expressing myself first in Spanish and second in English. Thus, my postings with Spanish words intermingled are less a neo-liberal-hip-pro-Latin-American-ism and more a laziness to translate my Spanish thoughts into sloppy English words. Please forgive my laziness.

Currently reading: "Thinking in Pictures and Other Reports from My Life with Autism" by Temple Grandin
Currently listening to: Mercedes Sosa, Los Tigres Del Norte, and Gotan Project

A Day in the Life

7:45am	Wake up and get out of bed. Don't take a shower. Put on my dirty clothes from the day before.
8:00am	Do an introduction with the volunteer group. Explain the work that we will be doing as well as some ground rules for the worksite and for the living facilities.
8:30am	Leave for the worksite. A construction superviser and I are in a pickup full of tools. The volunteer group is following us. Poor road conditions, distance, and traffic account for the 1 hour morning commute.
9:30am	We arrive at the worksite and I introduce the family and the volunteers to one another. This usually consists of the names and ages of the volunteers and a welcome by the family. Everyone is anxious to get started.
9:45am	We begin working. We unload the tools from the truck bed and pass them out to volunteers. I direct traffic and get people started on specific tasks, i.e. I "coordinate volunteers." These tasks may consist of tying rebar, digging trenches, stacking blocks, making cement, passing cement, and more.
1:00pm	Lunchtime. Lunch is cooked and served by members of the community. Lunch usually consists of rice, beans, tortillas, some form of meat, and agua (flavored water). I've been on this diet for over three months, and I still look forward to this food everyday.
1:45pm	Start working again. It's often a little slow immediately after lunch (you can imagine why), but after about 1/2-hour, the group picks up the pace once more.
3:00pm	Stop working. Just before the second wind is about to deflate, I direct the group to pick up the tools, clean up any materials we've been working with and get into their vehicles. "We're heading back to the Posada!"
4:00pm	Get back to the Posada (beautiful living facility). Let the group shower and change their clothes while we unload the tools and work on some other projects in the office or in the field. There's quite a bit of administrative work that we need to do to prepare for upcoming groups and to follow up on groups that already came. In addition, I've got some projects on my own to work on during this time.
5:30pm	Clean up. Maybe take a shower and change clothes.
6:00pm	Eat dinner. The volunteer group will usually invite me to eat with them. That means spaghetti or something else easy to cook for 30+ people.
7:00pm	Group activity. This may involve taking a group for a trip to the dUS-Mexico border, going to the Tijuana cultural center, visiting Rosarito to do some touristy shopping, going to a soccer game, etc.
10:00pm	Personal time. I try to read and/or do some e-mail correspondences although I usually end up falling asleep in the process.
11:00pm	Go to bed. Zzzzzz.....

That's my schedule for a typical day as a volunteer coordinator for Esperanza International. Note however that each day is slightly (read drastically) different from the next.

There is a lot of flexibility in this schedule, accounted for by the fact that there are two other people working with me. One, Eduardo Zavala has been doing this for seven years, and the other, Valentin Claudel, is a volunteer from the Brittany region of France.

In general we have at least 30 volunteers in a facility that can hold up to 64. This pattern will change as summer draws nearer and we will be double-, triple-, and even quadruple-booked. That means less and less time to do personal stuff like bathe, sleep, and eat. Am I complaining? Naw...I can't wait for the summer season.

Currently reading: "Thinking in Pictures and Other Reports from My Life with Autism" by Temple Grandin
Currently listening to: Los Fabolosos Cadillacs, Los Tigres del Norte, and Sergio Vega.

I am not Mexican

No matter how hard I try (or don't try), I will never be Mexican. At first sight, with my now-dark brown skin and black hair, I may pass for one, but hear me try to speak Spanish, realize that I'm struggling to understand a fast-paced colloquial conversation, or discover my inadequate knowledge of Mexican culture/geography/politics, and you will know that I am from elsewhere. Is this a big deal? It is if you live in Tijuana, Mexico.

In a city that has spent its entire history straddled between Mexico and "Gringolandia," it is incredibly obvious to me in which of the two classifications I am inevitably placed. Working with volunteer groups mostly from the dUS, I regularly receive friendly quips from my Mexican co-workers about "mis paisanos" at times when they feel like anything but. Even the French volunteer (he would tell you that he's really Breton) receives taunting calls of "gringo" from the sidelines of the local football pitch. Forget any notion of Freedom Fries, this is a place where polar opposite are the norm; a place where black and white force gray into anonymity.

But reality, 'tis neither here nor there. Tijuana, in national culture, sports, and politics, is neglected by the rest of Mexico, just as it is politically and physically separated from the dUS. It is an untouchable border town disavowed by its heritage. Like Tijuana, I have always felt like an outcast. With mostly Chinese physical features and mostly German cultural influences, for one reason or another, I am obviously earmarked as "from elsewhere" (even when traveling to Germany and China). #1 question from people that I meet for the first time: "What is your ethnicity/background/nationality?"

Yet, unlike most of the Tijuanenses that I've met, I have found comfort in my hybridity and instead of feigning affiliation to a particular team, I have embraced all of humanity as my people. Problem with no man, before "mixed" I'm first human (catch the Fugees reference?).

While the situations that prompt these conclusions are probably shared by mixed-culture kids roaming the world, more generally, it is also the experience of people are transplanted from their comfort zones to a radically different environment. Some examples include: the jump from a small high school to a large out-of-state university, living in a different country for an extended period of time or interacting with people from a different socioeconomic class in a work setting. Through the process of confronting these differences of environment, relative identities become forged into absolute identities (for better or for worse). For example, my half-white, half-black friend who associates herself with the Black community in Seattle was taken aback when she went to South Africa and was considered beyond-a-doubt White. As a result, she said that she has a new perspective on herself and is more aware of her affiliations. A more negative example might be someone whose basic assumption is that she/he is better than a particular "type" of person (i.e. poor, rich, Mexican, White, young, old, etc.). Upon being confronted with a particular example that is interpreted to support this hypothesis (I can't hide my science training), she/he assumes that it holds for all of the existing people of this "type."

This process of confronting one's identity is one that I try to facilitate week-in and week-out with volunteer groups here at Fundación Esperanza de México (exactly how, I'll try to explain in a future post). And while not all of these identity-confronting experiences lead to positive outcomes, those that do, make this work worthwhile. What makes an outcome positive? For me, it is the individual's conclusion that no matter how hard we try (or don't try) we are all equally human. And that is one step closer to world peace (insert a few seconds of silence for dramatic effect).

All roads lead to Home

Today, I got to know a mother of three children who lives in the La Morita community and whose husband lives in Kent, Washington dUSNA (dis-United States of North America). He paints houses in the Lake Washington area and sends money back to Tijuana. She's been involved with Esperanza for the past eight years and is in charge of a program that helps teach children about healthy water habits. They have lived apart for five years and she sees him once a year.

She and I are working together on a community garden project (really her idea). We are both really excited to get some more community-building programs started. What better place to start than an existing system that depends on individual and community nurturing (a garden)? I feel like my Biology Club organizing days are returning once more. The circle is becoming more complete. Indeed, all roads lead to Home.

Thank you to all those at Home (Kenmore, U-District, Veitshöchheim, Tijuana, Bensheim, Regensburg, Hong Kong, and elsewhere) who have nurtured this individual. I haven't forgotten you. In fact, you're in my thoughts daily, motivating me to "no pare...sigue, sigue" ("don't stop...continue, continue").

Currently reading: "Development as Freedom" by Amartya Sen
Currently listening to: Bob Marley, Manu Chao, and Blue Scholars

In the news

You can find some pictures of my co-workers and Tijuana community members on the San Diego Union Tribune online photo gallery (see pages 1 & 2). Sniff...I'm so proud of them. Tomorrow, I'll be working with a volunteer group from Marin county to pour the foundation of Nico's (Nicolasa Lucero) house using some of the blocks that you can see being made in the pictures. I'll start talking more about the actual work I'm doing in future posts.

PS, one should now be able to post comments without needing an account.

Borders at the Beach

Beach Borders
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

I told you there would be more comments and pictures about the border fence (see "News affecting my new home"). This is another view of the border fence at Border Field State Park (see previous post). Yes, the fence goes down the hill, across the sand, and into the water. More than a physical barrier -- the fence, made of temporary airplane landing strips left over from the first Gulf War, is riddled with rusted holes and is easy to climb -- the extent of the fence can be psychologically devastating. Is there no space we (Americanos) can share? Are we that different that we need a 10 foot tall metal barricade to seperate us, even at the beach?

This fence continues for 42+ miles inland and is accompanied by a second layer of fencing that is virtually impenetrable. Where thousands of migrants once waited to cross, now lies a lonely border that has pushed its potential crossers further east to the treacherous deserts and mountains. Since the implementation of Operation Gatekeeper in October 1994, the number of border-related deaths has escalated (3,000+ documented deaths since 10/1994). Further east, on the Arizona border, hundreds of volunteers participating in the Minuteman Project are waiting to spot immigrants trying to cross there.

Note: these migrants are not terrorists or drug smugglers. Not doubt both of those groups have better means of crossing than walking for days on end through the mountains and/or the desert. Build another fence for national security? For the security of our economic standard of living, perhaps.

For example, the estimated 1 million+ illigal immigrant workers in the dUS reportedly contributed $7 billion to Social Security without being able to benefit. We have a vested interest in maintaining a flow of undocumented workers.

References:
"Operation Gatekeeper: New Resources, Enhanced Results"
http://uscis.gov/graphics/publicaffairs/factsheets/opgatefs.htm

"The Minuteman Project"
http://www.minutemanproject.com/

"Illegal Immigrants are Bolstering Social Security with Billions"
NY Times, April 5th, 2005
http://www.nytimes.com/2005/04/05/business/05immigration.html?

Amigos sin Fronteras?

Amigos sin Fronteras?
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

If you take Interstate 5 California Exit 4 and head straight for 2-3 miles, you will find Border Field State Park. Previously known as Friendship Park (named by former First Lady Pat Nixon in 1971), this park sits on the western-most segment of the dUS-Mexico border. The border fence seperates the park from a lighthouse and the Plaza Monument bullfight ring (the second largest in the world), which are both located in Tijuana.

Oftentimes, for my work, I take volunteer groups to the Tijuana side of this park show the stark contrast between one side and the other. Having never been to the dUS side, I decided to venture over there on my day off. Direct access via car to the hilltop picnic area near the fence was barred due to "construction," so I took advantage of the sunny weather and walked the mile from the outer parking lot to the fence. Upon arrival, I noticed two border patrol agents on 4x4's and a third sitting in a Ford Explorer. Closer to the fence, there were some handwritten signs (see picture) from a protest rally a couple days prior. Just after taking some pictures, I heard my name called from the other side of the fence. It was Juan and two of the Los Niños muchachas, Becky and Emily! Juan is a resident of the La Morita colonia whose house was built by Esperanza five years ago. He now offers his bus as transportation to volunteer groups that come down. Becky and Emily are both long-term volunteers, like myself, living in Tijuana for a year. The also host volunteer groups that come from the dUS to help build schools and take care of kids. The three of them happened to be taking a group of volunteers to the border fence at the same time that I was visiting the other side (el otro lado). We greeted each other and chatted through the fence for awhile. It felt strange. I wanted to shake hands, shift my body position to their side, and go get some fish tacos in Tijuana, but the fence held me back. I imagine that prison visits might feel similar.

While the coincidental cross-fence encounter was strange, it solidified in my mind the fact that friendships can cross barriers. Like the sign said, "AMIGOS SIN FRONTERAS" ("Friends without borders"). The fence made no difference in our sentiment towards one another...only towards the pinche fence that stood in our way.

On the value of family

In terms of biology, the tendency of a family to care for on another can imply a stronger fitness for their respective genes. Sociologically, family ties (á la Mafia) carry political and economic consequences. My sister visited me this past week and it became obvious to me that some of the Tam family traits (potty humor, cross cultural references, and sarcasm) carry a lot of value for me. As individualistic as our society would have us believe ourselves to be, I am glad for this reminder of my biology and of my upbringing. I love you Tam Family!

Talking to the people of Tijuana, I've come to realize that the notion of family is incredibly strong on this side of the border fence. It's rare for people to move away from their parents. Even leaving one's immediate family for a week is a BIG deal. For better or for worse, I'm not sure that I could be where I am (thousands of miles away from my family) if I had grown up on this side of the border.

PS, Mexico beat the dUS 2 to 1 in a World Cup qualifier this past Sunday. Kasey Keller, a long time dUS keeper from Lacey, Washington (woop! woop!), played really well despite the shitty defense of the red, white, and blue. Where are Alexei Lalas, Marcelo Balboa, and Eddie Pope when you need them! We need to win the upcoming game against Guatamala in order to stay in the runnings.

Currently listening to: Tijuana pop star Julieta Venegas
Currently reading: "How to Change the World: Social Entrepreneurs and the Power of New Ideas" by David Bornstein

Hecho en Mexico

Insight often comes out of context. For me, it came when talking to a recovering drug addict. “Where are you from?” I asked. “Hecho en Mexico,” he replied. His situation and mine are largely a part of where we were born. His drug-riddled city, Tijuana, is full of rehabilitation centers. My yuppy-riddled city, Seattle, is full of psychologists, lawyers and coffee houses. Yet, despite these differences, we were working side-by-side, mixing concrete for an elementary school playground. Yes, it inspires a beautiful image of community, however, distinct differences in our respective opportunities to share remain. A citizen of the dUS, I can legally cross back and forth between the dUS-Mexico border without much paperwork. As a Mexican citizen, he most likely requires an endless amount of documents to cross an imaginary international line. Do I feel guilty when I’m able to drive from my home in Tijuana to the San Diego Airport to pickup my sister and I know that some of my co-workers are unable to access the same opportunity? Of course.

An interesting study of Latin American language (i.e. Spanish) reveals another insight. Use of the word “Americano” refers to those who live in the Americas (both North and South). Only dUS citizens refer to themselves as “Americans.” Citizens of the dUS (and Canada) are referred to as “Norte Americanos.” What do you think that implies about the “North American Free Trade Agreement” (NAFTA)? Is that really a pact that benefits all the “Americanos” or just the “Norte Americanos?”

Every day I spend in Tijuana challenges me to re-learn about this culture in which I am participating. What words are used when addressing different individuals? How can a personal conflict turn into one between me and the entire Mexican population? How do communal notions of respect co-exist with systematic disrespect? There’s so much to learn still and each bit opens my window to a fundamentally different way of living.

Institutions of Power

Stanford Campus
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

Walking around the Stanford campus on a sunny day in Palo Alto, I see a future battlefield. Why isn't there graffiti on the fences? Why are the parking lots filled with BMW's? Why are the majority of service-people latinos? The halls of education are sheltered by walls of money. We can talk about diversity, but until I see real multicultural dialogue (oral and visual) I won't believe it. We can talk about a level playing field, but until the pre-season training is open to everybody I won't trust it. We can talk about "fostering skills and passion to improve the health of the world's people through research, innovation, and leadership," but if only 10% of research money is going towards improving the health of a vast majory of the world's population, I can't agree.

In other news, the amount of money sent by Mexican nationals into their home country (mostly from the dUS) reached $6.6 billion last year and is expected to become responsible for the largest cash import this year, surpassing the foreign sale of Mexican oil. Meanwhile, the dUS Congress is debating whether or not to make it (1) harder for Mexicans to enter the dUS illegally and (2) more difficult to obtain any legal documentation (i.e. driver's licenses) after reaching the dUS.

Domingo Dominoes

Dominoes
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

Truly a "sun" day. I went with Selso's family (Selso is the groundskeeper for La Posada) to visit a park in downtown Tijuana, on the good side of town. I spent hours people-watching and enjoying performances by dancers, singers, and clowns. Little by little, the feeling that I should be somewhere else getting work done left me as the warm afternoon breeze enveloped my body. I was being de-United-States-ified. That, of course, is a luxury that not everyone of my Tijuana neighbors can afford.

preferential option for the poor

Big Mexican Flag
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

Liberation theology talks about a preferential option for the poor - "an O for the P" in Paul Farmer's lingo. More and more, I am adopting this perspective on my still few experiences here in Tijuana. Last week, students from a private Catholic high school in Bellevue, WA volunteered their spring break to "serve the poor" here in Tijuana. At a final reflection, many spoke of being glad they were able to "help out." Prima facie, their gesture is a noble one. After all, they worked hard (and paid money) to provide labor for a family that might not have been able to afford it. But why couldn't they just pay money to buy a backhoe that could have done the same job in 1/5th the amount of time? Wouldn't that have been more efficient?Wouldn't that have been a better gift? That is the question that was not confonted and was left unanswered by many. Giving is a two-way street, my friends.

Having this group of students from my home (from a rival high school, no less) forced me to re-discover my own experiences at an affluent, private Catholic high school. Thinking especially about how each of us are "gate-keepers" to certain resources (university, select sports clubs, etc.) – something I learned from my non-university education while at the U. of Washington – it is obvious that a significant counter-force (i.e. "O for the P") is necessary to combat institutionalized racism, inadequate health care systems, educational discrepencies, and the increasing gap between rich and poor. In my eyes, these are not so much many seperate problems as one single problem with many faces. I can only hope that my compatriots will, en masse, correct the tunnel vision that has plagued our eyes for so much of our country's history.

"The real burden to society is not the poor but the corporate rich. We simply no longer can afford them."
- Michael Parenti, Dirty Truths

(Some) Relevant Reading:
- "Mountains Beyond Mountains" by Tracey Kidder
- "Dirty Truths" by Michael Parenti
- "No Logo" by Naomi Klein

A foundation

Monica's Foundation
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

The end of my second week working for Fundací­on Esperanza de Mexico (FEM) feels like a solid foundation for my future work here. My Spanish is getting tolerable, my public speaking abilities are maturing, and I'm feeling more happy overall.

The second volunteer group has come and gone. I will miss some more than others. This group confirmed that age and experience do not necessarily amount to wisdom and maturity. A 14 year old boy, his first year as a volunteer with Esperanza, was one of the most admirable, while a man in his 50's, a veteran volunteer with 8+ trips, had much growing up to do. Humbling!

Currently listening to: Waxwing, Juanes, Maná
Currently reading: "Complications: A Surgeon's notes on an Imperfect Science" by Atul Gawande

When it rains, it pours...

Outside La Posada
Originally uploaded by MarcelTam.

The past week was rainy, with the clouds only clearing up on Ash Wednesday (see previous post). Poor conditions forced us to stay home from work on Friday, leaving us with nothing to do but prepare that afternoon's fiesta (I'm not complaining).

Overall, my first week came with a lot of excitement about having a new position in a different city and country. That, however, was largely overshadowed by my lack of Spanish speaking ability. I'm mentally exhausted and find myself sleeping in the breaks that I get. Poco a poco, it will get better.

On another note, a public announcement about increased violence - specifically, drug gang related kidnappings of dUS citizens in Nuevo Laredo - at the dUS-Mexico border by the dUS Department of State has caused 2 volunteer groups to cancel their trips to this organization. Is the threat real? Really small, perhaps. The public announcement basically states the precautions that one should normally take when visiting a Mexican border town: don't hang out in neighborhoods with a lot of drug-related activity and be cautious in red-light districts (esp. at night). Just another example of how even slight changes in dUS policy can greatly affect lives in other countries.

Un dia con sol

Today, Ash Wednesday and my third day on the job, was satisfying. On Ash Wednesday devout Christians mark their foreheads with a cross of ashes to symbolize that they belong to Jesus Christ. For me, this day marked a reaffirmation of my committment to this organization, Esperanza International. A discussion with my boss/partner, Eduardo Zavala, on the drive to the worksite brought me back to my goals while in Tijuana: to learn as much as possible about the lives of the people of Tijuana, to better understand my own country, and to help build the organization for which I am working. The worksite is my church. The people I work with are my congregation.

Happy Chinese New Year! It's my year, the year of the Rooster (aka the Cock), and big things are happening in my life. We'll see how it turns out.

In other news, Mexico beat Costa Rica (2-1) in a 2006 World Cup qualifying match. I'm looking forward to playing some soccer here. At least I can speak that language more fluently than Spanish, but I'm getting better at the latter.

News affecting my new home

"Border fence could skip rules" (Feb. 5th, 2005)
By Terry Rodgers, San Diego Union-Tribune

The dis-United States (dUS) Congress is voting next week whether or not to install a THIRD border fence between the dUS and Mexico near Imperial Beach (~20 minutes from my home), which the proponents believe will be impenetrable to "illegal" immigrants. This law would override a decision by the California Coastal Commission to deny the project due to environmental concerns. It's incredible how the Right is able to negatively affect immigration (more deaths), the environment (excess erosion & destruction of rare habitat), the economy (maintenance of low wages/cheap labor), and preservation of culture (covering of American Indian archeological site) in a single bill.

Although the environmental advocates can still battle the proposed project in federal court, "final authority rests with President Bush, who could overrule a federal court ruling in the interest of national security."

More comments (and pictures) about the border fence later...

First Impressions

The view from my bedroom at Pueblo Esperanza.
Originally uploaded by MnMnTam.

Arrived on Friday (02/04) and went out for tacos de carne. I've been visiting this neighborhood (La Gloria) for the past 4 years, but it feels different when I know that I'll live here for the next seven months: I have a greater sense of ownership/belonging. That's a good thing, right?

Currently listening to: Maná, Juanes, and Eliades Ochoa
Currently reading: "Dirty Truths" by Michael Parenti